Suppose we all did what we said we were going to do. And suppose promises were kept. Suppose you grew up and suppose I didn't love you anymore.

Fuck I wish sometimes I didn't know you. That I had no ties to you and that I didn't care that you are ruining what could be a wonderful thing.

OMG Hilariousness!!

oh my goodness I cannot believe I actually found the perfect picture to go with this blog lol

So I had a lunch date with my best friend, Tia, at Mikey's Mexican Restaurant. I got off work and headed over to pick her up...everything was going good, we stopped at our old high school so she could pick up her transcripts and then we went on over to Mikey's. Well, we order and get our food and decide that its just such a beautiful day outside that we want to sit outside. Let's just say bad idea for Tia. We both had fruity flavored drinks and for some reason the bees were all over her drink (They of course left mine alone...we have an understanding lol.) Well Tia was talking to me about something and she had her hand draped over her drink and I noticed that there was a bee on the tip of her pinkie (Tia is allergic to bees just to let you know) so I nonchalantly tried to get the bee off of Tia's hand without letting Tia know what I was doing and right as I had the bee in my grasp Tia noticed. OMG! OK if you haven't ever seen a grown person freak out over a tiny insect then you don't know what you're missing. She screamed and jerked her hand towards her body while shaking it as if it was on fire. I couldn't do anything but LAUGH MY A** OFF...I laughed so hard my tummy hurt and poor Tia, poor, poor, Tia. I think she will opt out on the dining outside from now on hahahaha.

Come and Stay

Come walk with me into nights dark oblivion where the owl hoots and the coyotes howl

Come dance with me to the mourning doves lonesome song while the desert trees beat out the rhythms of their longing

Stay here with me until the sun stops its shining and the dust becomes so thick no one can ever find us

Stay here while the world crashes around us and we feel no more violence

Come to me with your problems and worries my hand will wipe away your tears

Come to me with your laughter and smiles my heart with call to yours ever louder

Stay away from me when you feel yourself falling and your charm has ceased to fool me

Stay away from the things that destroyed you when you never even realized you had a choice

Come sing with me when your voice starts to fail you and the stutters confine you

Come run with me when the hounds of hell threaten to rip you apart

Stay here in my arms when you hear the voice calling you back to the dark

Stay here on this ember with quickness of breath and smiles in your eyes

Come to me with your sorrows and questions my lips will quell the trouble in your heart

Come to me when you feel you're not worthy my voice will renew your sense of belonging

Stay away when I say Come to me

Stay here when I say Come do

My voice and my lips tell lies in their truths

My hand and my heart will rip yours apart

So be careful with your longing

So be careful with your lust

I Kinda Figured

♥I kinda figured I knew you better than I did,

♠I guess I was thinking like a kid.

♥I kinda figured you would never treat me that way,

♠I guess you learn something new every day.

♥I kinda figured you kept your word,

♠I guess it means nothing to you.

♥I kinda figured I could trust you with my heart,

♠I guess you didn't realize you were ripping it apart.

♥I kinda figured I could always count on you,

♠I guess the words you spoke were never true.

♥I kinda figured you would settle down,

♠ I guess I will always wear this frown.

♥I kinda figured that you loved me true,
♠ I guess you never knew how much I loved you.

Vendetta!

Did you find it funny the way you lead me on? Did you find it amusing toying with me the way you did? I cannot believe how quickly I fell for you like a bag of rocks I became what I never wanted to be. You played the game quiet well and I followed you like a dog on a leash. My emotions got tied up in your lies and your laughter. My heart which I had thought would never feel again became a pin cushion for all your stabs and the worst part is that you never even knew...you toyed with a heart that you didn't know you had and now I'm lonely broken and sad. How many times will i have to sew up my heart as it keeps getting ripped apart. I did it to myself is all I can think...when you pursued me with your suave words and your dreamy dark eyes. You were the one looking for someone I just happened to be close by. But I guess I never was enough for you I guess I will never be what you want me to be. When you are finished with her don't come to me...when you are alone and broken like me. I won't be waiting I won't be here. I can't keep having things turn out this way with nothing to show but my look of dismay. You could have been honest with me and I never would have turned out this way....to top it all off I found out on this day. Screw all your lies, your deceit, your hugs...they didn't mean jack and you really weren't that impressive anyways....I've seen better. Go choke on your tongue may it burn in your mouth, go live with your whore who's known in the south. I've heard the men like her because she doesn't charge much...I've heard the men like you for hand jobs and such...

Father Crisis

My father has been the backbone of my existence my whole life...he taught me everything I ever needed to know from etiquette to working on cars to using a hammer. He encouraged me to be the person I wanted to be and comforted me when I was sad. He cared for me when I was sick and held my hand when I was scared. He told me that I can do anything I wanted to as long as I believed in myself. He was there when I was born, he saved my life when I had fluid in my lungs. He was there when I cut my first tooth and when I took my first step. He watched me grow up and taught me how to dance. He played games with me and showed me what it means to love by loving my mom so much. He went to my recitals and plays willingly and with a smile on his face and pride in his eyes. He was with me when I found out I had medical problems and comforted me when I cried. He told me to be strong and to be the best I can be. He took me to the hospital when I got ran over and when I cut my head open. He took me in hand when I didn't want the shot. He taught me to change the oil in my car and change my brakes. He learned that I never do anything I don't want to do. He taught me to cook and how to sew. He showed me the worlds in books and movies. He watched me go through school...probably hoping I wouldn't get into trouble. He gave me my eyes and my smile. He gave me my mannerisms and my laugh. He watched me walk across the stage for my diploma and I saw the tears in his eyes before he turned away...He has so much strength and a zest for life. I just wanted you to know the man I was raised by and to understand why I cannot stop the tears falling from my eyes. He is ill and needs all our strength and prayers...please, for me, keep him in your thoughts and hearts for I cannot lose him, I wouldn't know what to do. I love him so much that my heart is breaking in two. I ask God to help my family in our time of need...Please God be with him and keep him safe let him live to see the day when his youngest daughter isn't such a fuck up and if you need him more than I do please make sure you have a place for him that's very colorful and bright and full of wonders for he deserves the best as he has given me and my siblings all these years. I love you daddy.